let's try this again

Once upon a time I chose to start a blog of my very own. I thought I could express myself while keeping up with the times and maybe make a difference along the way. I wrote one entry and then spent a whole summer contemplating what "blog worthy" things I could write about. Blog worthy? What does that even mean? Nothing, because I made it up. I crack myself up, I really do. I created a blog with infinite possibilities (see my first, lonely entry), but saw absolutely no possibility for my blog. Funny alex, very funny. The end.

But it's time for a new beginning! That's the best part of life, you can always start over! I share this little fairytale with you because it reminded me of why I haven't been feeling fully self expressed or powerful recently. I stopped creating who I am. You create who you are every moment of every day. You are who you say you are right now. Did you know that? It's actually not your past experiences, your stories, your clothes or your friends that make you who you are. It sounds simple and obvious, but you'd be surprised how easy it is to forget! However, I am human and I am allowed to forget. That's another thing. When I'm not creating who I am and I'm stuck up in lala land complaining, whining, and frustrated, I make myself wrong for being there. It's ridiculous. I'm giving that up. Now. It is okay to be there sometimes. While yes, living in a world of possibility is satisfying, empowering and so much more FUN and AMAZING, it is okay to now always feel fun and amazing.

The voice in my head (the one in lala land) just said, "does this make any sense? will people get anything from this?" Oy vey! Haha. And so, I think it would be a great start to create who I am everyday, right here on ivycoloredglasses, and share anything else that comes up along the way. 

Today, or should I say tonight, I am creating being healthy and being creative. Who are you choosing to be? Remember, have fun with it and don't take yourself too seriously!

I must go attend to my homework that is so loudly calling my name before GLEE comes on at 9! Goodnight (but not goodbye this time).

Much Love,

Alex