let's try this again

Once upon a time I chose to start a blog of my very own. I thought I could express myself while keeping up with the times and maybe make a difference along the way. I wrote one entry and then spent a whole summer contemplating what "blog worthy" things I could write about. Blog worthy? What does that even mean? Nothing, because I made it up. I crack myself up, I really do. I created a blog with infinite possibilities (see my first, lonely entry), but saw absolutely no possibility for my blog. Funny alex, very funny. The end.

But it's time for a new beginning! That's the best part of life, you can always start over! I share this little fairytale with you because it reminded me of why I haven't been feeling fully self expressed or powerful recently. I stopped creating who I am. You create who you are every moment of every day. You are who you say you are right now. Did you know that? It's actually not your past experiences, your stories, your clothes or your friends that make you who you are. It sounds simple and obvious, but you'd be surprised how easy it is to forget! However, I am human and I am allowed to forget. That's another thing. When I'm not creating who I am and I'm stuck up in lala land complaining, whining, and frustrated, I make myself wrong for being there. It's ridiculous. I'm giving that up. Now. It is okay to be there sometimes. While yes, living in a world of possibility is satisfying, empowering and so much more FUN and AMAZING, it is okay to now always feel fun and amazing.

The voice in my head (the one in lala land) just said, "does this make any sense? will people get anything from this?" Oy vey! Haha. And so, I think it would be a great start to create who I am everyday, right here on ivycoloredglasses, and share anything else that comes up along the way. 

Today, or should I say tonight, I am creating being healthy and being creative. Who are you choosing to be? Remember, have fun with it and don't take yourself too seriously!

I must go attend to my homework that is so loudly calling my name before GLEE comes on at 9! Goodnight (but not goodbye this time).

Much Love,

Alex

What does life look like through ivy colored glasses?

Beautiful. Dangerous. Intimidating. Desirable. Ugly. Perfect. Tragic.

Anything. Everything. Nothing.

Life is however and whatever you want it to be, depending on how you look at it! "Ivy colored glasses" is my metaphor for a lens that sees infinite possibilities. My best friend Marisa came up with the artsy title because my middle name is ivy and she likes when I wear my glasses. She knew I would interpret it as I did because she knows me too well, and voila, my blog was born.

Now that finals are over and my sophomore year of college (crazy) is complete, I have time to express myself on the internet to you, my fellow readers. Yay! I am home in New York this summer interning at Night Agency and jha part time, co-writing a book and spending quality time with my mom, frolicking in the city with my best friends, and going on whatever fun adventures come my way! My cousin Justine from Kansas City will also be working in ny this summer and I can't wait to see her!

I have been so anxious to start my blog, I am going to leave you with this introduction, but there will be plenty of exciting updates very soon!

I am off to walk the board walk at Jones Beach with my mom and Mitch, her boyfriend, for mother's day. Happy mother's day to all the incredible, inspiring moms out there! Specifically to mine, the extraordinary Jayne Black whom I admire more than anyone, I love you and thank you for being a stand for me to accomplish my goals and beyond.

Much love,

Alex